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Sunday, 06 July 2008

  • summer!!XD








    LOVE IT!!!XDDDDD

    feeling much better now! Always feeling tired though. Hope the classes end soon and give me a decent grade plzzzzz...

    Finally pick up drawing. XD








    XD





    hope all of you enjoy the rest of summer!!!XD

Sunday, 11 May 2008

Thursday, 08 May 2008

  • gimme one more chance.





    Love the weather. It makes me feel cosy and surrounded. God's nice to me. All the time.

    Try hard to find myself a way out while people just keep telling me calm down and peace. Let Him choose for you and just take everything given by Him gratefully. Sorry I am not yet a Christian. But still stick w/ it.
    It's usual for people to feel clummy and depressed right?

    True.

    Should applause for myself really. This is the I so tough and brave that I have never imagined. Or dare not to imagine.

    Used to hide away in some sense and block out every tough challenges. And now I just face it even they are so hardcore that drive me into tears.

    I can make it. And thank you for all of you guys. Cant say anything other than thank you. And dont know what to do for you guys when im getting better again.

    Hope you all can understand you are the most precious things I got in the world. Love you. And be w/ you all the time.

    Doc. actually told me im getting better. And didnt recommend me to go medication. Good. I can beat the disease by myself. "You are a nice girl still. Dont give up and keep going please. Life's good." Thank you Doc. Try hard and go far.

    should buckle up and set off again. Time is the only thing I got and I have no reason to waste it.

    Dont wanna give everyone a explaination about what happened. I know. And you guys know. That's all I need. Dont want people to judge me again based on some other new "evidence". I can handle it w/ the help of my friends.



    Let it go. And peace.












    Thank you.

     




Tuesday, 06 May 2008

  • 可不可不撑下去。

    听任何歌看任何书都可以令我流眼泪。

    很辛苦的第一天。要如何过一年。

    医生都是骗人的吧。他们都说打针不痛。吃药不苦。到最后还是我皱着眉头发现真相。
    这次他们给我承诺,说一切都会好起来的。我不知道该不该相信。

    以前的你很爱笑。现在被泪水淹没得气息奄奄。

    满脑子想法。脆弱。干瘪。无食欲。流泪不止。想家。想说话。困倦。

    这个根本不是我。开始怀疑人格是否已经再次分裂。

    我就是一个downer吧。我的错误让所有人失望了一次。而我的一蹶不振又让所有关心我爱我的人又失望了一次。讨厌自己却真的没有办法控制任何东西。

    5月2号开始就被医生贴上vulnerable的条子。我想撕掉却那么无力。知道哭没有用却什么也做不到。

    今天医生看到我的样子。竟然也流泪了。我问她为什么。她说她看到我流泪觉得我的样子很让她心疼。她想尽快把我治好我却那么不争气。

    sorry.对所有人。和自己。




    "life will be good again. if you want to." Thank you Doc. I keep your words.

Tuesday, 08 April 2008

  • Currently Listening
    The Reminder
    By Feist
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    Life's a dance, we all have to do

    What does the music require?

    People are moving together

    Close as the flames in a fire


    Feel the beat; music and rhyme

    While there is time.


    We all go 'round and 'round

    Partners of lost and found

    Looking for one more chance

    All I know is,

    We're all in the dance


    Night and Day, the music plays on

    We are all part of the show

    While we can hold on to someone

    Even though life won't let us go


    Feel the beat; music and rhyme

    While there is time.


    We all go round and round

    Partners of lost and found

    Looking for one more chance

    All I know is,

    We're all in the dance


    We're all in the dance


    We all go round and round

    Partners of lost and found

    Looking for one more chance

    All we know is,

    We're all in the dance







    Frank's dishroom has magic actually. It is the 2nd time for me to reflect on myself seriously. 



    It's time to do something seriously but no more random shits. I have wasted a barrel of time. It's time to buckle up and fight for something I really want in my life.



    <We're All in The Dance> is so touching to me w/ no reason. It makes my iPod shine again.



    Miss you all so much. I got tons of words to say to you guys. Those are things I can never say on the phone or via webcam. See you soon.


    Actually I wanna say sth. specifically to someone: I am so proud of your hardworking and man, you do keep your words. Hope you can just keep going. And that's what we two should do together. 

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